AVANTIKA MEHTA
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I speak both Hindi and English, but I only
write in English.
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i'm 22 from New Delhi, India, currently studying Law at CardiffUniversity in Wales, UK. I went to a catholic school in Delhi and then to Delhi University to graduate with a BA in Economics | POEMS | |
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Without a Clue
Speaking with words drenched in worldly wisdom
Full of childish thoughts
Walking straight and confident
Weighed down by the confusion in my soul
Guarding myself from the world
with brittle, collapsing walls
Shrouded by lack of faith
Praying for my salvation
Mocking any acceptance
Desperately looking to be loved
Going headon into every situation
with a heart gripped,crippled by fear
It gets harder every day
pretending to know full well everything
when really
I'm running around without a clue.
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Real Lonliness
Long nights, empty beds
unanswered calls, silent phones
swallowed tears, fake smiles
drifting away from myself
friends lost,perhaps they never were
waking up to wet pillows
slipping down the spiral of sorrow
empty promises, white lies
smashed egos, hurt pride
mindless conversations, terrifying silences
pointless searching, endless disappointments
does it ever stop?
it is meant to improve
or is this it?
all i have left to look forward to.
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Potrait
A tiny dot, in the massive time line
caught in the palm of some gigantic hand
crawling across an endless horizon
spaced out and blurry eyed
paranoid, strung out
half hearted questioning
riddles for answers
frustrated, disillusioned
need to look into the mirror
just to see myself.
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Avantika Mehta
All Grown Up
What's worse, I wonder
the pain that used to eat away at me
or the hollowing indifference that sits within me now
was it tougher to cry by myself each night
or today's casual acceptance of loss
the sorrow and shock of life letting me down
or the lack of expectation that cushions me today
what's worse I wonder
mourning my ever breaking heart
or smirking during the wake of my dead one.
Special Girl
Round and round you go
spinning faster and faster
don't look around
don't look up at all
you'll remain special, girl
till you see the world that surrounds you
Breath in, deeper and deeper
close your eyes, live in that dream
don't sneak a peek now
stay with those fantasies
you'll remain special, girl
Till you look upon reality
too many jaded out there
so many disappointed with themselves
too much out there could hurt you
just too much to live upto
Round and round, you spin around
close your windows
don't open those doors
faster and faster
you'll be precious forever
in your own little world.
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